“If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who can be our foe, if God is on our side?] [Ps 118:6 ].He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?” –Romans 8:31:32

Each time I declare and meditate on this verse with a strong conviction in my heart, I drift away into an era of Mathew: Chapter 23, as I watch helplessly; the preparations that took place towards the crucification of an individual -“Jesus”!!!

The so-called respectable, Holy Chief Priests of the Church all conspiring on, how to kill this, individual called  ‘Jesus’ .All they talked about was a way he had to be taken out of the picture (Mafia Style).Judas,  a “Jesus” follower/supporter making a deal on the rate he would be paid if he betrayed his ‘Jesus friend’ and how he would hand him over to the soldiers, with just a kiss and hug.

In the next moment I  see standing in a room this beautifully clothed and extremely love filled man called ‘Jesus’ . He looked so full of confidence, wisdom, love and power. He was cleaning the feet of all his apostles, breaking bread, lovingly guiding  them on what was to happen and what all is to come.

I  look about wondering, wanting to tell this man ‘Jesus’  who is the one in the group going to betray him. But, I suddenly realise that I am just an helpless onlooker .  I think in my mind; he knows and whisper to myself how sad it is!. It stuns me on how much love filled he still is; standing and fighting strong for all around him.

Hearing the hurt in his voice  mixed with strength when he says “I know I will be betrayed”…

Then ‘Jesus’  gets handed over to the soldiers. I see him still standing with  elegance, power and strength. I just can’t take it anymore and I want to help, but I just stand there and realise there is nothing I can do. Is there? I see a disciple cut off a soldier’s ear to help. ‘Jesus’  just rebukes him and lays his own hand on the soldier’s ear!!!!

‘Jesus’ says something and I  just stand watching in utter shock. He asks firmly, “Do you suppose that I cannot appeal to my Father and he immediately provide me with more than twelve legions [more than 80,000] of angels?”.

I  shockingly whisper; “Did he just say he can get the backup of 80,000 angels? Wow!

I wonder helplessly; “Why does he not use the help and kill all these mean, crooked people?

He turns, calmly looks at me and says;  “Because, I Am Love”. ‘Jesus’  then looks at all and says;  Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest.”

I AM THE WAY”.

Tell me, how can I not love this unconditional, loving individial?  How can I not praise such a man of stature who knew he can have all the help and much more and still decided to die for sinners like me; who just watched and did nothing!!!!..

Innocent, uncared, beaten, tortured, humiliated, bleeding  and still fully filled with love!

 I realize He does not need my help, He did it all for me. He is “my help”. He is my “only help”

Call me at all Times , I am there for you; He reminds me and keeps telling me everyday; my Saviour!

“Why Me?”, I ask

Jesus replies “You are Worth it”

“No more do you need to feel helpless anymore . I have already paid the price; for you.